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Hi... to whoever is reading this!
I don't know why you are reading this but most probably you want to learn something more about me! Whatever the case do as you like with this document .. I don't really care
Why do you have an amazed face? Don't keep it to you .. someone might be watching you .. and get interest.. You dont want to bore him right?
I want to ask you .. why the hell one can't touch what he wants and never wants what he deserves? Why is the “good” for us always so oposite to what we want or what we must? Why are there so many things in life that do not make sense? And why the hell we have the ability to think this way??
It doesnt make sense.. why evolve into something “better” while making this better have a harder time.. isnt evolution to help you survive? Why must there be gods govermentts and peopele with power over others?? Wouldnt it be better if someone could make his own universe and put in it the things he wants and have the misfirtunes .. but up to a controlled grade that he can handle?
Think of it .. its not the best and most challenging.. that I am always preaching about.. but when I am about to break down into little pieces I think of more efficient ways to do things .. and make my life a little bit easier..
Why must I be such an idiot that believes with all his heart into honour? Into having things to protect? Why cant I change my self to someone that can go with the flow and loose his mind ? Loose himself?
There are so many time that I just wish I could change myself in such a way.. that I wouldnt be able to make this kind of thoughts....
I just want to be free and everywhere I look I find that people want you to close your mind and follow them.. But even though I feel that I want this .. I can see clearly that this is not in my nature and that I certainly cant do it no matter what!
Want to learn more?? I admire you.. you must be different.. you must be a lot like me.. probably you are thinking now the same things I write and I am thinking.. I am sure that if you are able to reach this point .. you have clearly read between the lines and you want to find something.. probably the reason of this document.. but that I can answer.. there is no reason ... like there is no reason for you to reading this...
I am in a pretty depressed mood.. that I wait for a certain someone to call.. yes.. doesnt it sound very shallow?? Well it is! I want to make sure to myself that my feelings are true.. See?? Its not that hard to go with the flow.... Never Before have I thought that I might actually and truly be in love.. but now is different.. my need to go with the flow brought me here... isnt it ironical..? always choosing the hardest road even if you sometimes try to avoid it? Its all human nature!
we humans want to believe that we are strong.. I hope that you dont actually believe it .. Hasnt it occurred to you .. that even a certain string of frequencies can change your whole mood? .. a single one celled organism can kill you.. where is the power?? the only power you have is when you hold a weapon towards ann animal.. or most likely a human being.. this is power?? Dont be ridiculous.. I the weapon you are holding is not projectile.. how would you defend against a tiger? Against someonw that is crazy?? an unarmed man with the resolve to kill?,.. Its way easier to pull a trigger...
And by the way .. about humanity .. because your are thinking that I am talking bullshit.. and humans are good.. Most certainly you are not able to harm a cute looking cat.. but its way easier to say something to another human that might bring him to his oblivion... its easier to cuddle that cat if it looks you with two innocent eyes after she broke something precious to you... but if you love.. and find your loved one cheat on you... you will get “out of mind” and pick up a kitchen knife and slight his throat open .. and then say its love.. how egoistic! If your only loved one that you would give your life for is a cat.. and then see it .. going for other cats.. you are feeling good for him! You dont kill it.. you are happy with its happiness... Can you see my point ?! I hope you do !
Still here?? I am impressed...
Parents.. what a joke! They care for you.. right?/....... DONT MAKE ME LAUGH
The say dont do this because they know that you might get hurt .. or for one hundred other reasons! They are right.. but .. since they care .. why if you dont take their advice for granted try to wage a psychological cage on you so you dont it .. or in the worse case forbid you with their unique way from doing it??
Well... good for them and they care.. but let me show a contradiction.. Why would they tell you to learn stuff? Get experiences .. search for yourself .. research.. or anything.. sincce they have done it .. why dont they pass it with their unique way? Why let you study ,.. or let you make decisions or think.. if they know the outcome ? And they are going to tell you do it or dont.. Why make you a person that thinks if they are going to tell you what to do ? Is this clear? I dont hink so .. but that is the best I can do!
The only answer I can accept is because they know that they will not be there forever.. still .. this doesnt change that fact.. They love you? Maybe..still the outcome of what they are doing is destroyiing you.. I dont want love that cant build .. or help you build... Who wants it.. If you have a girlfriend or boyfriend that is holding you back.. at some point you see it and then you break up .. but parents attach themselves to you so much .. and then they expect that you will do the same.. and if you dont . They unconsciously try to get you attached with more emotional reasons... The Proccess is noble.. I can see it.. but the outcome is not!
Why should people lie?... just to preserve themselves..?
Thats the most stupid answer I have ever heard... What do you think people are.. stupid?? they are beasts.. and many other things but stupid .. no! Really.. Why have you llied? To get a boyfriend a girlfriend?? to do your own?? or just for the heck of it?! I dont in which of these categories you are in .. and certainly I dont exclude myself from the liers.. but I at least try to say only white lies! And only if it absolutely possible.. The only thing that is not lying but looks a lot like it if you are on the receiving end is to know half the truth .. That at least is noble! Compared to others!
Now just imagine of a world that lying does not exist.. everyone would be 100% honest.. that would be the end of the?? Some people might say that .. but no! That not the end of them... the only way thay might have had problems is from extraterrestrial life! And if that happened.. there would be no traitors ... they would be just one big team working harmoniously .. thinking about the goal.. and not watching their backs in the process! Like 99% of people do.. and those that dont .. are already dead... I know from experience... Even my “best friend” backstabbed me.. But I am too much of an idealist to stop believing in friendship! For some .. probably stupid reason I still believe in the existence of friendship and as I write this I am sure that I have at least a friend that has been there all along! And I thank him!
I just though of what I said in the beginning of this Document.. about being in love! Why ? Really? I can see that the feeling is very good! How it makes you fly into the skies and ponder about your future with that certain person!.. But man as a specie is such an asshhole!.... So as a logical being I am thinking of the crash landing when her interests change.. when she will start thinking more career wise .. I whatever the reason.. You never know..
Still here?? Let me say that you have the potential of finding out much in your life and be remembered as a wise person.. cause the one of the most important feats that a MAN can poses except from an open mind (to be able to reach this point and understand) is patience!
I don't think I will ever meet you.. but I am proud of you!
---A Friend
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